I've been formulating this blog in my head for the past couple weeks, and today turned out to be the day to get it started. Today is one of those "hard to trust even though you know God has a plan and it's good and everything will work out and you have to stop being irrational and crying" days. A little more than a month ago I decided, after many months of unhappiness and effects to my health, that I would resign from my job as a home based therapist. This was a major step of faith because though I had been looking for another job, I hadn't found one yet. But I knew that God was calling me to live a better life, a healthy life that glorified Him, so I quit. Thus began what I'm thinking of as "the trust fall." You know that game you played as a child (or in college!) where you stood with your back turned and someone stood behind you and you fell backwards, trusting that they would catch you. A lot of times this is done as a "team building" exercise. It usually felt like torture to me. I like to be in control, not putting my life in some jokester's or weakling's arms! So, that being said, living with no idea of what's next, or how I'll be able to support myself once my savings run out if no job comes along is really stinkin' scary. What could God possibly have planned, and could he please let me in on it for a second? As always though, He shows up. He is there in the beautiful faces of my church community, He speaks through my precious friend Maribel who is helping me speak Spanish. Seriously, if I could have even half the faith and wisdom that that woman has. She's amazing.
So, here we are. God doesn't make things easy. As Maribel said, the path of God is difficult, and is only for the courageous. He has certainly taken me on some adventures, and continues to do so.
Seguimos adelante. We continue forward.
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